Hello my lovelies! Today I just finished writing the ended to the first You're Mine, which sucked. I don't know how I managed to make the ending so shitty, but I did. Only me guys.
But it got me to thinking about all the characters and I got kind of sad (some tears may have been shed, but we won't get into that). The thing is, I miss Harry and Charlotte. I say this way too often and everyone is just like,"Well go write some more and get over it!" but I honestly can't. When I have the urge to write about them, I always think back to the original, where Harry has a "tortured soul" and Charlotte still thinks he's a douche. As weird as it sounds, I liked their hot and cold relationship. I felt like you could really see the character develop and the chemistry wasn't rushed. Charlotte was so confused on how she felt, you didn't know if she was in love with Harry or hated him. In a weird way, I liked that.
I also liked Harry's past with Cara and Chloe. I felt like both of those characters were just looked over and had a little to do with the plot, but I could have done without them. Harry and Cara's relationship was put very vague and I felt like I should have explored that more and set more flashbacks. Plus, with Chloe, everyone HATED her. I remember getting comments a lot on how much they hated her and for some weird reason, this rubbed me the wrong way. I feel like I portrayed her as a slut and a bitch, but there was never really a reason for it. The problem with the original was that I was so young and my writing was still developing. Also the plot was shit, but we also won't get into that.
Another two unexplored characters were Jewelea and Liam. I actually really liked Jewelea because she was this headstrong girl who reminded me of Charlotte in so many ways. I felt like she had a story that needed to be told as well, but it again was overlooked. I was going to have Zayn cheat on Perrie with her and I did mention it in one of the chapters, but I was in such a rush to finish it, after Harry and Charlotte left for Holmes Chapel, Jewelea was never mentioned.
Now Liam was a whole different story. I kind of made Liam Harry's little bitch and that made me really dislike Liam's character. I was going to have this big love triangle going on, but after Liam left Charlotte with Harry, I just immediately was like,"Screw Liam! Harry is obviously going to get Charlotte so this lover triangle is over." I really wish I would have made Liam a little more independent and actually born with a backbone. Also, I hated how he just left Charlotte at the mansion without even saying goodbye. Like, what a douche. I know that it seems like I have control over the characters, but it's honestly not that simple.
After I develop a character, I write what I feel like that character would react. I don't even know I'm doing this, but we all know that Liam wouldn't disobey Harry, so he didn't. That's why with the re-write, I really want to make him a little bit more bad ass. I don't know. Maybe I'll like his character a bit more if that happens and I think you all will too.
Honestly guys, I do miss Harry and Charlotte. I really do. I sometimes daydream about them having a conversation at the pool (if you remember that chapter then you are awesome) and they will be talking about something random and just start laughing. As lame as it sounds, I feel like they are real people who live inside my brain. And as crazy as it sounds, I'll actually look at something and be like,"Oh my god, Harry would hate that." and then Charlotte and Harry will start having a conversation about it in my mind. It just happens and it sometimes gets annoying on how often it does. (Like right now I'm thinking about Harry rolling his eyes and turning to Charlotte, saying,"And she calls us annoying. Unbelievable!" and then Charlotte hits him in the arm for him to shut up.) Can you not see that happening?
This is why I am so excited to re-write everything. It's a redo on all of my mistakes. Now, I have a bunch of key point that I want to add in and I really am going to try to explore every characters back story. I am planning on doing 3 books, like I planned the first time. So don't worry about permanently loosing the characters. For me, they never go anywhere.
"Finally, some peace and quiet. That girl cannot think strait for the life of her. I swear to god, if she makes me a loser in the next story, I will kill somebody."
"Harry, shut up."
"Fine. I hope she pairs me up with Chloe, since you seem to take her side on everything."
"You did not just say that to me."
"Oh, but I did."
"You're an ass."
"Yep, but I'm the cutest ass you'll ever meet."
"Not this again..."
- El xx
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